Wednesday, November 25, 2009

RECOVERY

tanggal 28 august 09,the whole family dikejotkn dgn berita yg menghibakan...dlm keadaan yg serbe elok,MAK suddenly diserang stroke...she paralysed her left side...luckily i was with her that time...if let say she falls(ya allah,jgn lah terjadi)she will be worst than she is rite now...

sume owg menghentam ako,sbb kamo lah mak jd camni...mak stress ngn niage,terloncat sini,terloncat sane uroskn kedai mkn...kamo???ape kamo bwat???put her with so much burden dgn perangai kamo yg kaki melwn,menjwb xhenti2,ntah la...all d blames were put on me...biase la,i will always be the problem one since i was a kid...plus, i will always dipandang young,xley jage diri,xreti berdikari,sng citer xreti nk survivela dlm ape2 pon...hey, im 24 diz year evrybody...i can survive if i've been given a chance to do so...tp xpela,maybe dats d perception fer the youngest of the family...i hate being ank bongsu...all d way dianggap spoil...manje...well im not manjerING all d time...

due to dat,im d one yang jage die till now...banyak yg encourage me n xkurang yg pulling me down...pertikai how im taking care of her...KAMO NEH KASA...CKP NGN MAK ELOK2 XLEY KE...YANG NK TENGKING2 MAK DLM DOK SAKET2 NEH APESAL...d list goes on n on...tp d best part is,orang2 sekeliling yg encourage ako tu yg buat ako kwat...there will always b a reason fer wut had happened they said...kene kwat...kene manyak sbr...kami taw, u didnt do that on purpose...percayelah bee,tuhan akan balas segale ape yg telah u sacrified...yang bwat ako tersentoh,ader jugak yg ckp ako neh tabah...jiwa ako kwat...ako maybe nmpk camtu...tp di dlm,xde owg yg taw...there r moments yg ako collapsed n fall my tears to my knees...ako rase x gune sgt2...ako taw...ako xde duet...ako xde duet nk byr neh byr tuh...get d bills done...tanggong mak ako saket...all i have is the strenght to look her back as normal...





and yes...im like a soccer mum...im d nurse of the house...taking care another 4 person in d house...my sis mmg x sehat since 2007 due to her leg operations n eye complications once shes been diagnosed with diabetic problems...my grandparents are also here...yes i have lost my young life...ako tolak tawaran2 keje yg ako tgu sejak ako grad...but xpela...ako rase maybe sume ni akn dibls later on...mungkin rezeki keje ako dtg lagi...my young life???xpela...da puas da kowt dlu...maybe mende neh tgh ajar ako jd owg yg responsible pd family...so kwn2 yg ade la terbrowse my blog, im so sowi if i neglecting u guys as a fwen...i dun even have the time fer my own self rite now...sgt hectic...so plis forgive me...all the weedings yg i xdpt attend...all d outing days...i promise,when evritink is clearer,i will get back to u guys...u guys have always being the streghts fer me to move on...thanx fer all encouragements...xternilai....

sekali lg dikejotkn...tanggal 22 november 2009,mak suda boley berjln tanpe ako pimpin die...benar, sblm neh pon da manyak improvements die da tunjok...she can barely moves...tp kali neh...diz will b d best part...bende yg mak tgu2 slame neh..."mak try lepas tgn adek...ley x jln xyah adek pimpin?""ish kamo jgn gile,kang mak jato kang""try dlu mak..."kamo jgn nk pakse2 ako .""kene try la mak...jgn takot...kene brani...dare urself mak"....steps by steps shes trying...n finnally,she can...die gagahkn juga berjln sampai ke dpn...ako juz tgk2kn,takot if die jato...sampai je dpn,all she did was tutop muke die ngn dua blah tgn...pnjt kesyukuran...n all i heard,shes in tears...xpena ako tgk die gembira sampai camtu...muke yg asyik dok pucat bertukar merah...tande puas dgn kejayaan sendiri...ako msk lam bilik...i was in tears as well...tp ako xnk tunjok...ako jugak puas...sbb mulot jahat neh la...mulot kurang aja neh la...care yg kasar neh la...die da pandai ator langkah die spt dulu2...dgn kejayaan diri sikit neh,ako harap die lg kwat utk teroskn kejayaan demi kejayaan...utk capai diri die yg normal dlu...i believes she can...shes strong...mak,kami sume doakan mak....

"there is never inside me to make u sad...there is never a toughts to pull u down....i never did it with purpose...all i want is my healthy MAK...the one yg sgt lincah ke sane kemari..."

Monday, November 23, 2009

all new

as fer a kick start,i would love to say hi n welcome myself here...al maklumla...owg len da pantas menaip bwat blog...ako br nk terkial2 blaja bwat blog...at 1st ako ingt bwat natang neh cam xde faedah pon...but i rang a bell to my head,why not kn bwat blog...diz is d place fer me to express my feelings over sumtink...about life...about your ups n downs...to me,it wil b my little diary...sape yg bace n kenal diri neh,then they will noe...bcoz im not good on exressing sumtink by my actions...i rather keep it to myself...nobody knows what lies beneath...

ok then,diz will b my wall of crying sensation...wahahaha...poyo sial...