Monday, January 18, 2010
AKO BKN JELEZ
yg merunsingkn ako neh...ako da SETHN jobless...terase selame neh dok blaja tinggi pon cam xde ape2 hasil pon...end up xde keje gak...elok 9 bln ako tgu,manyak plak twaran keje...tp keadaan plak x izinkn ako nk keje...ade tanggungan besa di rumah...3thn diploma...then 2 thn degree...5 thn kowt berhempas pulas nk achieve segulung ijazah...n i have succeeded...(even result n pointer bkn la BGS gile babi n ptt dibanggakn...)at least i berjaye gak get through those 5 years of surviving myself yg ako pasti x mudah spt yg disangka...windo plak ngn classes yg ako attent kt UITM png n UITM shah alm...tp bile ingt blk TESIS,FINAL PAPERS,ASSGMT yg xberkesudahan,owh no no no...big NO ako nk lalu lg...sgt penat...hahaha
now ako stuck...xtaw ape nk rancang...dunno where to start...cane nk get myself to work...ade je halangan...ntah la...kdg2,ako cam mls nk pikir about my future...sbb i dun have any clue at all...clueLESS!!!!
td plak,abg ako call mak ako...telling all d gewd news...gaji die ade increement...plus die dpt bonus fer last year...total pay yg die br dpt da dkt 10k...gile ke x...manyak tuh...terase hina nye diri neh...blaja tinggi pon nk dpt duet sniri...nk kasi mak ako rase duet keje ako blm kesempatan lg...haih...tambh plak abg has always been d best in our family's eyes...terasenye ako neh cam ank x gune je...ntah la...lg ako pikir,lg bertambh semak otak ako...maybe ni la dikatekn D BIG PURCELL OF LIFE...rezeki owg laen2...kiter x nmpk...kiter x taw...so wuts next???ape akn jd kt ako???kite nantikn la same2...2 b honest...ako da a bit give up...sbb xdpt predict wut will happened kt ako nanti...tp mudah2an...sume nye ok...dan ako x nyusahkn owg laen...(pray hard fer diz)
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
RECOVERY
and yes...im like a soccer mum...im d nurse of the house...taking care another 4 person in d house...my sis mmg x sehat since 2007 due to her leg operations n eye complications once shes been diagnosed with diabetic problems...my grandparents are also here...yes i have lost my young life...ako tolak tawaran2 keje yg ako tgu sejak ako grad...but xpela...ako rase maybe sume ni akn dibls later on...mungkin rezeki keje ako dtg lagi...my young life???xpela...da puas da kowt dlu...maybe mende neh tgh ajar ako jd owg yg responsible pd family...so kwn2 yg ade la terbrowse my blog, im so sowi if i neglecting u guys as a fwen...i dun even have the time fer my own self rite now...sgt hectic...so plis forgive me...all the weedings yg i xdpt attend...all d outing days...i promise,when evritink is clearer,i will get back to u guys...u guys have always being the streghts fer me to move on...thanx fer all encouragements...xternilai....
sekali lg dikejotkn...tanggal 22 november 2009,mak suda boley berjln tanpe ako pimpin die...benar, sblm neh pon da manyak improvements die da tunjok...she can barely moves...tp kali neh...diz will b d best part...bende yg mak tgu2 slame neh..."mak try lepas tgn adek...ley x jln xyah adek pimpin?""ish kamo jgn gile,kang mak jato kang""try dlu mak..."kamo jgn nk pakse2 ako .""kene try la mak...jgn takot...kene brani...dare urself mak"....steps by steps shes trying...n finnally,she can...die gagahkn juga berjln sampai ke dpn...ako juz tgk2kn,takot if die jato...sampai je dpn,all she did was tutop muke die ngn dua blah tgn...pnjt kesyukuran...n all i heard,shes in tears...xpena ako tgk die gembira sampai camtu...muke yg asyik dok pucat bertukar merah...tande puas dgn kejayaan sendiri...ako msk lam bilik...i was in tears as well...tp ako xnk tunjok...ako jugak puas...sbb mulot jahat neh la...mulot kurang aja neh la...care yg kasar neh la...die da pandai ator langkah die spt dulu2...dgn kejayaan diri sikit neh,ako harap die lg kwat utk teroskn kejayaan demi kejayaan...utk capai diri die yg normal dlu...i believes she can...shes strong...mak,kami sume doakan mak....
"there is never inside me to make u sad...there is never a toughts to pull u down....i never did it with purpose...all i want is my healthy MAK...the one yg sgt lincah ke sane kemari..."
Monday, November 23, 2009
all new
ok then,diz will b my wall of crying sensation...wahahaha...poyo sial...